Finding my Spark (again)

So this past week was definitely a difficult one. I struggled with a lot of insecurities and negative thoughts, and loneliness. It got to the point where it was hard to feel motivated in my classes, and even in my responsibilities at Wesley. I was just feeling distant and, because I can be petulant, I didn't really go to God with how I was feeling.

Today was a nice change, though, starting with my prayer time before bed last night. It was one of those times where I felt like I was having a dialogue with Him, and finished that time feeling peaceful. The early part of today was a nice little excursion down to Winter Park with my friend Ana to see our friend Megan at the cafe she works at, and to go to the art festival in the park. It ended up being really hot, but it was fun nonetheless. Summit was what really helped me today. The worship tonight was absolutely wonderful, especially the last song that we sang. I'll post it at the end of this post. It was another instance of feeling extremely connected to God, and feeling like I was hearing from Him.

The sermon tonight was about being faithful where we are at, not waiting for everything to be perfect or calm, or get everything right with others, because if we wait, we'll never be faithful. It also touched on being open to things that we had never considered before, because God might have great blessings in those areas that we didn't know we wanted. For me, lately I've felt more and more like God may be calling to serve and love on those in the LGBTQ community. From my experience with Zebra Coalition, to the relationships I have made with friends who consider themselves LGBTQ, I am beginning to realize that one of the best ways I can show God's love on this Earth is to love those whom many cast out. That's exactly what Jesus did, and I am called to live, and love, like Him.

I'm also excited to begin serving more at Wesley with Student Staff tomorrow. I think I'm beginning to get my spark back. I just need to keep focusing more on Him and living out my faith in Him, than on myself.